People have asked me why I wanted to get arrested in London (as described in the previous post)
There were two reasons. Two things I was concerned about – which happened to point in the same direction, in terms of the solution (in my mind, in May 2021):
1) I didn’t trust my local government services. For starters, not my local Community Mental Health Team – but also, not the local police, the housing office, my landlord (a social housing provider), etc… I thought that if I got arrested by another police force (ideally the Met – but I had also spent several hours trying to get arrested in Brighton), they would investigate my situation and maybe fill me in a bit (there had to be some reason it was so appalling) – without the thought to make a properly submitted formal complaint and then maybe escalating it (but TBH I’d have been more interested in a human rights lawyer, or a private detective…
2) I thought a lot of resources (I mean something more than the cost of my state benefits, mental health support, etc) were being used on me – to keep me either safe, or in the dark (I couldn’t decide which)… but, given how unhappy I was with how my life was going, I decided it’d be cheaper and I wouldn’t be any less happy if they put me in prison instead
…So it was like : Two Reasons – just go and get arrested, and All Problems Solved!*
*as has been noted (and reported somewhat widely) I wasn’t in the best frame of mind at the time…
But, I don’t think “Cameron was experiencing poor mental health” really gets to the bottom of it.
…Wondering if I need to write more about why, or how, I lost confidence in mental health services and my local CMHT, but it feels like it’s gonna be a bit of a list of grumbles… probably more of a dollop.